I just spent the past 3 hours creating a general layout for the Incredibly Green flyers I plan to pass out next weekend at Warped. It wasn’t a slaving, 3 hours straight, though. I did stuff in between. It was fun, though. I really enjoyed it…much more than I thought I would’ve.
I’m incredibly tired right now, though. I think my lack of sleep is wearing on me. I’ve been getting frustrated more easily and have been getting headaches. I should go to bed, but I don’t feel like I’m ready…even though I’m immensely tired. I feel like I still have something I need to do before sleeping, but I don’t know what it is.
I’m rambling, though. I really don’t have anything significant to say at all. I’m just trying to get in the habit of using this thing as a journal sort of thing (of course, a public journal) because I’ve found in the past that I can think more clearly when I’ve been actively keeping a journal. It may sound childish, but my mind gets so crowded with seemingly random thoughts that it makes it very difficult to sort them without writing or typing them out.
I’m going to quit now because I apparently can’t type tonight. I keep having to backspace like 3 times on a single word. It’s the sleep deprivation kicking in.
Goodnight.
A sleepless night. I had Lilly tonight. Man, do I love that baby. I live for her smiles. The best feeling in the world is when Lilly sees me, recognizes who I am, and then gives me this gorgeous smile of hers.
Who can deny that baby? Lol. Anyways, I’ve had a pretty decent day. I’m broke & Chan’s paying for my dinner & a movie Friday night. Can’t wait. Night out with the girls. No kids…which is rare amongst my friends. They all have kids. Haha.
Listening to Alexander.William.Gaskarth sing Teenage Dirtbag. I love that man.
Here I am, sitting on my bed. I have other things I should be doing, but I’m ignoring them. There’s been so much on my mind lately, I can’t focus. The scene of my friends has dramastically changed. Yes, “dramastically” is my new word. It’s a combination of “drama” and “drastically”, because that’s what this change has been.
We’re not kids anymore. We can’t use the excuse of being young & immature. Sure, we still are considered young & immature, but we’re expected to be coming out of that and it’s just no longer an acceptable “excuse”. We have straight (real) responsibilities now. Some of us are married. Some of us have children. Some of us have pets instead of children. Some of us are happy. Some of us are not. Some are content & some want more (or less). We’re all learning. We’re all in this new phase of our lives and we’re all trying to get through it as smoothly as possible. Some of my friends are ahead of me on this journey and are trying to guide me along my path. Some of my friends are far behind me and have only begun on their path. Some of my friends should be farther along than they are, but they’ve hit some sort of road block.
I’m not quite sure when I started on my path. It was definitely sometime after high school. It was even after I decided to quit college. In fact, I believe I may have only begun my way on my path a mere 3 years ago; perhaps even 2 years ago. Having started on my path at age 20 or 21, I can’t help but wonder when others started. Did they start around the same time? Was I late or premature in heading for mine?
This post is a great example of what goes on in my mind 24/7. I usually have a very difficult time sorting through my thoughts when I want to write (or even talk) them out, but John Mayer’s “Assassin” is playing on repeat and it’s really helped. That’s what his music does to me, though. As much as I love All Time Low, John Mayer & Jack Johnson have such an intriguing effect on me.
I feel like if I continue, this post will lose whatever strain of thought it may have, so I’m going to just quit here.
